**Long Time Gone

It has been a long time since I have blogged. Only once in December, to be exact. I tend to blog when I'm feeling happy and content with my emotional life. I have not felt that way recently.

A close friend (as she watched me suffer through these past few months) suggested that it's a "pensive time" which is apparently common as you reach your birthdays on the "1's". (I feel like 680 news - traffic and weather together on the 1's) I turned 31 in October and since then have been in a topsy-turvy limbo of disarray.

I went through a baby phase - not me, myself as a baby, but the thoughts of another one in our home. I was totally convinced I wanted it.

I went through a moving phase. I was SURE we needed a new house and financially had all the pieces in place.

I went through a cutting back at work phase. I actually DID do this one, and it takes effect February 2nd. I am looking forward to that!!

Thankfully hubby is too little of a push-over to go along with my raging plans, because ultimately, I changed my mind on the baby and moving situations. I realized that I was restless. My life has fallen into place exactly as I had hoped. I have wonderful kids, financial stability, a home in a perfect location with a wonderful school a few steps away, we all have our health, and our lives are actually where we wanted them to be. This is what we planned for and worked so hard for all these years.

So my new year's resolution this year is to relax and enjoy life more. Enjoy my kids. Go places, take trips, work a bit less hard because I can, take time for myself. Go out nights, get a babysitter, attend concerts, spas, do fun kid stuff without worrying about missing work a few extra days a year.

I'm glad I maintained my whits about me before making any rash decisions that I would have regretted, and now I'm in a much better place.

I only hope I can be better at this year's new year's resolution than last year's. Last year I vowed to blog more often....(blushing)...oops...